Its been eight months, yet nothing has changed. The uncomfortable silence, the cold attitude and the meaningless conversations still exist. There are times i so want to break free, to just shout out to everybody to just leave me alone. To give me the space to be what i want to be and to do what i want to do without anybody giving me their opinions which in truth hardly matters to me anymore.
This is what indian marriage is all about...?? I thought things had changed and times have changed but it doesn't look like that to me. Wearing good clothes and keeping track of whats in and out in the fashion world is not being modern. The first step to it infact is having an open mind. The ability to accept changes and move along with them.
Im stuck, im stuck with a household that doesn't give me the freedom to do what i want, go wherever i want, its sad because its not like im shying away from my responsibilities just to do what i want... im doing everything that i am responsible for yet i am not being appreciated to for what i am or do.
I take good care of my husband, hes happy with me, and im trying to keep my In-Laws happy yet there is always some thing that they aren't really happy about.
